The year 2008 went by fast.  Looking at my new year resolution's list last year, I notice that I only accomplished one: spending more time with my Prince Charming.  We did a lot of fun trips: going to the Caribbean, to SD, going skiing, going to the beach...a lot...We did have a couple fights but they actually made us grow closer to each other.  About the rest of my list, I accomplished some in smaller scale.  So anyway, here is my list for this year:

- Explore new places and try new fun things with my man
- Apply to grad school
- Develop a new set of skills at work
- Spend more time with my family
- Practice my tennis & skiing
- Perform my first belly dancing routine
- Keep in touch with friends
- Start my new collection: not sure what i'm going to collect yet.
- Read more books

That's it!  We'll wait until next year to see how much I will accomplish.

Lately I've been feeling unfulfilled and it is probably because of several things. 
First of all, I'm feeling like I'm losing track of my career goals: short term goals and long term goals.  After working for the health care industry for three years, I believe I found where I belong to.  I've learned many valuable skills and I've proud of what I've been accomplished.  However, I'm getting to the point that I feel comfortable and unmotivated to push myself harder.  I want to excel, to grow and to be challenged.  I'm sure there are so much to learn but somehow I'm losing interest.  It's time for me to revisit my career goals and stay focus!  I like my company because its culture fits my personality.  I like my group because the managers are pretty laid back and my coworkers are fun.  I feel like I'm in part of a big happy family.  I still want to stay with my group because I think there are so much to learn.  However, I'd like to develop some different skill sets such as delegation, leadership, coaching, etc.  In the long run, I'd like to run a health care institution so that I can help people and improve the health care processes.

Second, I'm feeling like I've disconnected with most of my close girlfriends.  I used to have some that I could talk for hours and hours about everything.  Some friendship unfortunately fade away due to the lack of communication.  I feel like it's my fault to have my friendship fell apart.  I should have contacted them more often.  Living an ocean or several states away doesn't give an excuse not to connect to them.  I need to reconnect to my long lost girlfriends.  I know even though I don't often talk to them, they'll always be there for me.  Now, I can't wait to tell them that I always value our friendship and they're always in my heart.

Third, my mom and I used to have a good communication.  I used to tell her everything.  Now, we hardly have a deep conversation.  I just feel like she doesn't understand me so I stop telling her what's happening in my life.  She's the best mom I've ever wished for, so caring, so loving, and sacrificing.  She always puts my brother and I before her.  She loves us unconditionally without expecting anything in return.  She's the real image of a Vietnamese woman, a Vietnamese mother and a Vietnamese wife.  Sometimes I give her an attitude but she just lets it go.  Sometimes I feel bad for taking her for granted.  In my family, we don't often express our love to each other.  We automatically assume that it's so obvious that doesn't need to say in words.  We don't often express how we feel either especially if the feelings are negative.  It took me a while to learn how to open up myself to others.  Living in the US, I had to make huge adjustments with everything.  It's been almost nine years and I'm still adjusting.  Sometimes I'm struggling between two cultures.  Finding a common one is hard and it takes time.  Anyway, I miss my conversation with my mom.  I'm hoping that I can improve our relationship so that we can understand each other better. 

What is the odd of running into someone that you don't wanna see yet?  Tonight I did!  What the freak!  It would have been so awkward if I bumped into that person.  Luckily, I was quick enough to walk out of the store.